Week 2 - Summon Your Creativity January 8

Many people are inventive, sometimes cleverly so. But real creativity begins with the drive to work on and on and on - Margueritte Harmon Bro, Sarah (1949)


Ask
Do I consider myself creative? Do I admire other people's creatitivity?Do I ever get stuck, unable to create anything? How can my negative and postitive self perceptions co-exist so that I don't get stuck? How can I respond to my critical self-talk? Do I have enough time and quiet to express my creativity? What inspires me?

Yes, I think I have always liked to be creative, I don't know exactly when or where I started to like creating things, but I remember some thing very gratifiying about looking at something I created, especially if it was functional. I do love to watch and share in other's creativity even if its not that I would particularly do myself. I like to see that same self awareness of creativity in them. I have been stuck for the past few years...surviving does that. No room for creativity. I seem to carry the tools from house to house but could not find the time or motivations to unpack and set up a wood shop, creative desk, jewelry center, nothing. Just kept packing it around. Always there in front of me as a reminder.I think every time I couldn't stop and touch my stuff, I berated myself with the "if only's". If only I had the time, or the money, or the supplies or the space. I just couldn't stop "moving", couldn't settle in. I didn't have a home any more after Marci died. I  am trying to quiet the self talk now by giving myself permission to take back increments of time and not feel selfish about it. I am trying to just be gentle with myself. I don't have anyone else to do that for me. I have become protective of my time in the jewelry shop. I make it a priority. When I can wear something I made, THAT inspires me. I am drawn to Pinterest now exploring things that I could do. Seeing pieces that inspire me to really dive back in. My friend Shari has trusted me with a mission to make her a feather bracelet. that is motivating. It makes me want to continue practicing so when I do her piece that I will be ready. Her faith that I will make something for her worth wearing inspires me.

Practice
1. People used to tell me I was creative because I could:
sing, dance, act, craft with most anything.

2) I used to bury my creative interests by:
being busy with work interests, or school studies, whatever was necessary in the moment to get by to keep family going.

3) Even if I stumble and make mistakes, my creative soul matters because:
Its  how I grow, its how I feel most alive, when I am can touch and make things

Affirm
Cultivating my creativity will:
help me feel centered and in touch with something that comes from my soul. It will allow me to quiet my mind like meditation.

All for now